[ you are my sunshine; my only sunshine . )

Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I'm emotional again, as usual. It took alot of brain cells to decide whether to meet her or not. I told myself and my friends, NO I shall not meet her. I have too many insecurities and doubts about her. But deep deep DEEP inside, I miss her so bad and waited so long to see her again. That night, I couldnt help it. I asked her out and we met up. The only place I wanna go with her is ECP. Past months I been going there with different people to accompany me so I could feel the sweet memories I once shared with her. Overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions as I sat with her by the beach. I controlled my tears, noticing you doing the same.

I'm confused, totally confused. You regret "dumping" me 8 months ago, claiming that was a big mistake. You want me back but fear you aint good enough for me. I'm the only one in your heart, nobody else. Hearing you say all this things make me feel the true happiness I long been yearning for. I THOUGHT we could start off slowly and start afresh. I felt bad for telling her I aint ready to accept her. I have my own share of fears too, fear of being a spare tyre, a safe harbour etc. Past 8 months has proven that my heart only wants you else I would have given up long ago. A couple of days later, you told me you're keeping your options open even though I'm the one you want. Wtf is this? You're turning my fears into a living nightmare. I'm at a loss of what to do now..

oh-so-bright.

exits. (:

[x]Clar Dearie E.X
[x]Atiqah Sister
[x]Farhan ESC
[x]Saidil E.X
[x]Karen E.X
[x]June E.X
[x]Baofa ESC
[x]Eric ESC
[x]Krissy
[x]K.C
[x]AyiE
[x]Valarie
[x]PeiRong
[x]Max
[x]Denise Toh
[x]Bryan
[x]Krissy
[x]XiaXue
[x]Nic Henry
[x]Jia En
[x]Dominic Chia
[x]MeiTing
[x]Lionel Phua
[x]Faithiee
[x]XiaoQuan
[x]Aloy
[x]Karen Ku
[x]Shaik
[x]HuiWen
[x]Weilin EX
[x]Michie
[x]Chiwawa
[x]Bashey

credits.
layout by ts`zerothree [c)

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com

[Introduction]

*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends

*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me