Saturday, November 01, 2008
It's been exactly a month since I started my specialist course. It's been one HELL of a month. And this week has been the hell-est of all. The training is tough, I admit it's putting a huge toll on my mind and body. I always have to endure and keep pushing myself to beyond my limit. I've never been pushed so hard. I keep telling myself, "I won't die." But on Tuesday, I ended up in hospital. I collapsed while training. Wtf sia? Never thought this could happen to me. I admit I want to give up already but I hate being a quitter. 2 days after I got discharged, I resumed training. And I collapsed AGAIN! Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf. The feeling when you're at your limit is HORRIBLE. At certain point of time when I know that I cant take it already, I just continued/endured. I will only stop if I collapsed. Suffering from physical fatigue is tormenting. I felt like as though I was at the brink of death. Experiencing this feeling twice in 3 days is NOT FUN AT ALL. My officer advised me into considering going out of course. My mind is made up, Im taking his advise. It's gonna take me a loooong time to swallow this down. Can someone help me get back up on my feet PLEASE? Sigh, that someone has got to be me.
oh-so-bright.

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com
[Introduction]
*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends
*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me