[ you are my sunshine; my only sunshine . )

Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Friday, March 23, 2007

It's time to listen to mama's advice which is not to get feelings involved during the process of widening your social circle of friends. Sigh, I admit I'm totally lost now. That "lost" feeling when things or ppl are taken away from you. I'm relieved that despite the break-up, I didn't drown my sorrows with clubbing or alcohol for I know those are gonna make my life a living hell. In fact, I'm losing the interest to club now and the smell of alcohol irks me off. Are these signs that the old doob is returning? I don't know but I certainly hope so.

Yesterday I went down to the hotel to take my pay at 5pm. I was supposed to rot and decompose till 9pm while waiting for Jia En to finish work. But LUCKILY I had Kim to accompany me. Bumped into her at Tampines MRT and she happened to be making her way to collect her pay too. And luckily she had no plans after that so I told her to keep me company! Lol, I thought she would turn me down cos we barely talk to each other despite working at the same place, being in the same school and have attended camps together. We did some shopping and watched "Stomp the yard." Throughout that few hours, she kept disturbing me la... Grrrrr, I dun understand why everytime people(girls mostly) always disturb me by poking my arms, tummy, chest and pinch my cheeks. Grrrrr..... After I parted with Kim to meet Jia En, she did the same things to me. And today when I went out with Sharon, she did the exact same things! But among them all, Sharon is the most violent. Sharon uses her fist instead of fingers to poke me and she would really punch! And she actually used my lighter to burn my hand today -_-Few days ago she bit my arm and left her teeth mark on it. Yesterday Jia En bite my arm at the same spot 5 times! Omg......girls need to be tamed.

Sigh, while sitting with Sharon at coffee bean earlier, my mood suddenly swung. I'm not sure whether is it becos of something she said or did or probably it's just me. My self-esteem is kinda low now. But whatever it is, RIDHWAN!!!!!!!!!! You got a blardy target to meet and that is to save up $2K before school starts. I've worked at least 100 hours($600) and the good news is, I've not saved a dollar -_-. I find it kinda hard to save up cos the work I do is DAMN tough and I would always spend my $$ as a way to reward myself for my hard work, lol. Goodness... Is it possible for me to just SIT at home? And the only time when I'm out of my house is when I'm off to work.

oh-so-bright.