Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I'm sure you guys have heard this phrase before.... "There's a thin line between love and hatred." NO, i'm not talking about Me & Clar. I still love her lots =) .... I'm just very disturbed as to how a couple could be so loving at one point, and then when things turn sour, both parties gets all heated up and a WAR begins. I'm not talking about small arguements or a small misunderstanding. I'm referring to those kind of war where ALOT of mess get created and also OUTSIDERS getting involved too.

Just recently, I was force to make a decision. A kind of situation I been through before and it is still haunting me! The worst experience that I've been through before in my life is witnessing the fall of a family. Whose family am I talking about?.....Mine! I still remember the times when my family used to be so closely connected, loving, happy etc. And then came the storms which dragged on till everything was put to an end. After being in a warzone for years, it's time for me to make a decision. Which path shall I take? Dad or Mum. How do you make such a decision? What wrong have I done? I'M FUCKING INNOCENT AND I GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH ALL THE FIGHTINGS. Why must I be FORCED to make a decision? This is not a fucking game. I would say this is a worst case scenario. Anything NOT as bad, can be resolved in a calm manner without the involvement of outsiders. If you are not able to solve your own problems, what rights have you got to force ppl to do something? It's definitely NOT FUN to be the man in the middle. Start using up your brain cells and juices.

Imagine this situation.....you're a father of 2 kids and both your kids are fighting. What is your fucking role? To start taking sides? HELL NO LA. You have to hear both parties stories out and say the fault lies with BOTH. An arguement can happen becos one party starts it. But a fight occurs when the other party choose to CONTINUE it. So who is at fault? BOTH. Spare me from all the fucking reasons(which I consider as excuses) for starting the war.

I remember a taxi driver once told me.... "No matter how sour things turn out to be between you and another person, be it your girl/boy friends or some strangers.......keep them as friends. You'll never know when you need their help." I am someone who LOVES my friends alot. I don't care whether you're a boring lot or not, I still love you all the same. I never know when I will need your help. Pls dun say, "Aiyah, I will never need the help of this jerk/bitch," after things turn sour. Are you trying to say YOU CAN PREDICT THE FUTURE? I tell you what, go be a fucking fortune teller cos if you are able to read the future so well, you can make a fortune out of it and prepare ppl for adversities to come. GO BE A FUCKING FORTUNE-TELLER.

And once a decision has been made, that ends it? HELL NO. I don't even know what's the blardy point of having to make one. I still can't accept the fact that I've to decide on whose custody I wanna be under. I've actually changed my decision twice! First my dad, then now my mum. It has been donkey years since they divorced but I still cant decide. But this isnt really bothering to the point where I juz wanna put an end to everything. Just don't put me in a fucking similar situation. "If you fren him, I wont fren you." WTF? Comparing that situation and how my family fell apart, the former can be resolved EASILY. IF YOU CHOOSE NOT TO WORK THINGS OUT NICELY, PREPARE TO DIE WHEN YOU START GOING THROUGH SHIT IN LIFE.

Am I done ranting? Yeah for now... =)

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Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com

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