Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

17th Jan - 23rd Jan
Maximum No. of Sticks Daily: 5
Average No. of Sticks Daily: 3
Most No. of Sticks taken in a Day: 6
Least No. of Sticks taken in a Day: 1

24th Jan - 30th Jan
Maximum No. of Sticks Daily: 4
Average No. of Sticks Daily: 4
Most No. of Sticks taken Daily: 6
Least No. of Sticks taken Daily: 1

31st Jan - 5th Feb
Maximum No. of Sticks Daily: 3
Average No. of Sticks Daily: 2
Most No. of Sticks taken in a Day: 6
Least No. of Sticks taken in a Day: 0

As each week passed, the maximum number of sticks is reduced by 1. The path to quit smoking is like a roller coaster ride. Cigarette has been my so called "buddy" all this while. I would take one in so many situations like....

1) Leaving for school
2) After meals
3) In between lessons
4) Bored
5) Lonely
6) High/Low spirits
7) Hanging out with my friends

Gosh.....on average I would take 10-15 sticks a day. I really hope to get rid of this habit asap. It's really really not easy. I been depending on it too much. At times, I feel like giving up.....I lose hope, I lose determination........But I would find whatever motivation I can find to cut down completely.

God, pls continue giving me the strength and willpower to overcome the obstacles I'm facing now.....I'm feeling weak and this feeling sucks...

oh-so-bright.

wantlist. (:

YOUR WANTLIST HERE.

exits. (:

[x]Clar Dearie E.X
[x]Atiqah Sister
[x]Farhan ESC
[x]Saidil E.X
[x]Karen E.X
[x]June E.X
[x]Baofa ESC
[x]Eric ESC
[x]Krissy
[x]K.C
[x]AyiE
[x]Valarie
[x]PeiRong
[x]Max
[x]Denise Toh
[x]Bryan
[x]Krissy
[x]XiaXue
[x]Nic Henry
[x]Jia En
[x]Dominic Chia
[x]MeiTing
[x]Lionel Phua
[x]Faithiee
[x]XiaoQuan
[x]Aloy
[x]Karen Ku
[x]Shaik
[x]HuiWen
[x]Weilin EX
[x]Michie
[x]Chiwawa
[x]Bashey

credits.
layout by ts`zerothree [c)

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com

[Introduction]

*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends


*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me

SHOUTs. (: