[ you are my sunshine; my only sunshine . )

Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Looooooooong weekend! I worked a total of 28 hours from Friday to Sunday. My legs are sore, I can barely walk. My hands and legs muscles are all cramped! My fingers.... I can't really feel them. But it's so fun working at Ritz Carlton! Past 3 days, my groups has been wonderful, they're so cooperative. And I like it when the managers start treating me as a senior staff, giving me responsibilities, let me lead a team to do stuffs etc. But one thing I'm so disappointed is the OVAL TRAY. That stupid piece of shit is so hard to master. I can carry it with one hand now and with LOADS of plates stacked on it. BUT.... I'm actually dying while carrying it. My back hurts like hell and my hand would go numb. Am I weak? Haha, of course not. I still haven't got the technique right. I been working for almost a year and yet I still haven't master the oval tray? Big disappointment.... -_-

Ridhwan 1 year ago:-
1) Non-smoker
2) Non-drinker
3) Non-clubber
4) Introvert
5) Loner

Ridhwan now:-
1) Smoker
2) Drinker
3) Clubber
4) In the midst of opening up
5) Open-minded

I know I have CHANGED ALOT. If you've been VERY close to me for the past year, you would realise that. But I just think that I'm changing for the better. I got one philosophy in life, as long as your circle of friends keep widening.....that's a life well lived! My friends are the biggest motivation in life. I'm willing to do anything and go all out to help them. At times when I tell you I can't help, it doesn't mean that I'm selfish. Some things, you gotta learn how to deal with them yourself.

Smoking, drinking and clubbing is not something pleasant. I'm happy to have found a gal who is willing to close one eye on that, especially smoking. I'm sorry I can't promise you that I'll quit. For drinking, it's not a big issue. I've never got drunk. For clubbing, my friends/colleagues keep asking me to go ZoukOut or MOS...... I turned them all down. Even though my dear Clar never stop me from clubbing, I will avoid those places. I believe by going to club, I'm not respecting her. Face it, what do people go to clubs for? For me I admit, it's just to DANCE and unwind. My friends has seen me dancing like some madman several times. But what if I get tipsy? Good game. I don't wish to do those undesirable actions.

Miss my Clar alot =)

oh-so-bright.