[ you are my sunshine; my only sunshine . )

Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Inside my mind, I'm always planning my next move. There are so many things I want to say to you but I have to hold some back for FEAR that......... (full stop). We just got to know each other, I feel that our friendship is still in the vulnerable stage, lots of bonding in progress. I'm really happy that we're getting along so well and I don't wish to ruin the path ahead of us just because of the feelings that I'm starting to develop for you. It's not a strong feeling yet. You're so unique, you're really different. When I'm with you, I get this happy feeling that I can't get it from anyone else. It's special, it really is. You've became my motivation for many things, except sleeping. I've not been able to sleep well for past few nights ever since I experience this "feeling." The thought of you keeps my mind awake. I wanna spend alot more time with you but I fear you might feel suffocated. You also need time for your own stuff and time for your friends. I wish you could tell me what you want me to do. I will go slow, I don't wanna rush. I wanna know how you feel, I don't wish to be mislead. I'm getting alot of positive reactions/body languages from you, but I still can't fathom out what you're thinking. I know this entry sounds confusing cos my mind's at whirl. Shall stop here -.-

Anyway, today I finally stepped foot into TOWN! It's been 2 weeks since I went to town. Ever since I became "active" in the ESC club, I rarely got time for myself except at night. My lifestyle is changing. Usually after school I would go town and chill out but now, my 2nd home isn't town but ESC club room. My 2nd family isn't Jeff and company but my fellow EnthuzeeX members, lol. I'm so gonna be busy for the next few days. Thursday I end school at 6pm, going MOS at night! Wooohoo, I can't wait. MOS HERE I COME AGAIN!!! Gonna be at MOS till around 4am I guess, might be having supper somewhere after that. I'll be spending the night over at Jeff's house before heading to school for my TEST at 9am! Omg.... After school end, I'll be meeting up with Jia En for the first time with Nicholas and Bryan and it'll be my first visit to Vivo City. At night, I got team training at Century Square. Then on Saturday morning at 10am I gotta be at harbourfront! I so can't wait for this....Sentosa outing with my EnthuzeeX members and some club members. Will I have the energy for all this? I gotta pray hard. Luckily I'm not working on Sunday.....gonna sleep the whole day.

I feel so much happier now cos I can FEEL IT! I can feel that I'm finally moving on and getting over the past after SO MANY MONTHS. It has been a real struggle for me. This entry is kinda random I know.....got no head or tail, I doubt anybody gets the point I'm trying to make =X

oh-so-bright.