Monday, September 04, 2006
Was supposed to meet up with Jo at 9am for our morning jog but she couldn't wake up. I knew it! Lol...my actual plan was to jog at 11am. 8am is too early man! Met up with Shun Tai at 11am. I got him to help me time my 2.4km. After sprinting for 1.2km, I stopped. I was breathing very hard, I felt like collapsing. This always happen each time I increase my pace, zzz. I can jog for 5-10km w/o a problem but with a very slow pace. I was very angry with myself so I went for a 2nd try at 2.4km. I didn't bother to sprint, I just told myself to keep a constant pace. Managed to clock 12 mins 15 secs. SUPER SLOW! My target is 10 minutes. My legs are aching terribly now.
ALOT of things happened today. I felt like as though I just experienced a war. I couldn't control my tears when my mum broke down. Haiz....ibu, I love you lots. I love you as much as I love dad. I understand what u guys are going through, I'll try my best to stay out of trouble. You guys are troubled enough. I felt so worthless just now as I stood one side watching helplessly the incident that happened earlier. Although I'm not the main party involved, I could have done some things much earlier to avoid all the tears and blood that flowed today.
And to you my dear...my forever one and only, the feeling is terrible. I feel pain, I feel remoursed, I feel lonely, I feel devastated. The only reason why I'm having such a hard time letting go is becos my heart is REALLY yearning for you. But I'm being ruled by the cognitive part of me. Haiz....what a struggle. Loving you always =)
oh-so-bright.

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com
[Introduction]
*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends
*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me