Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Sigh, I admit my mood for today is terrible due to 3 reasons. One, I didn't have enough sleep. Two, I upset Jia En. And the main reason is something that happened yesterday. Your words indirectly hurt me so much. I mean it when I said nobody can replace you yet you....argh nvm. Having a small crush on someone and taking over your place in my heart is 2
completely different thing. For the whole of today, so many of our bad memories were flowing through my head. I felt horrible but still, I was missing you at the same time. I just dreamt of Mama earlier. I was on my way to catch the last train home when I bumped into her at Orchard MRT. I didn't say a word, I straightaway gave her one hug and started crying. I guess I dreamt of her becos you've been in my mind throughout today. Sigh...
Public apology to Jia En: I'm really sorry for letting you down, for not doing as I promised. I was doing alot of self-reflection in the bus earlier. I'm gonna cut down smoking not only becos of myself or for you but also my father. He still hasn't got a single clue that I smoke and I'm sure he will be very heartbroken if he finds out I do. Sorry... =)
About yesterday's post, that special someone isn't Talisa or Jia En.....I'm not going to reveal the name. Those who already know, keep mum about it thanks.
It has been around 5 months ever since we parted. This 5 months has been the longest 5 months I've experienced so far. Time is moving so slowly, I don't know why. The slower it moves, the more pain I feel. I still love you, I still miss you, I still feel sorry about all that upset I've caused you during our relationship, I still am unable to let go, I'm still unable to move on and one last thing......Nobody has yet to be able to replace you, not now not ever! R & T 1314 =)
oh-so-bright.

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com
[Introduction]
*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends
*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me