[ you are my sunshine; my only sunshine . )

Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Thank you so much Mr HHQ! After knowing you for so long, you finally said something good about me. I still remember back then when you were still tutoring me, you would always shoot me, lol. When I get good results, you fire at me. When I get bad results, you bomb me. But I really have to thank you for being there during my Secondary school years. I think my L1R4 could have been doubled without you. I regret not being consistently hardworking. Anyway, you said I'm one of the most sensible kid you've tutored. That is so nice to hear. I'm gonna go back and be that sensible kid you taught. When you come back from the US, I will show you that the sensible kid has become a man =)

Albert told me that I'm trying hard to be an adult but my state of mind isn't right yet. It needs to be tuned. This actually struck a nail on my head. No one has told me that before but it somehow sounded so true. I still don't quite get it though. Does it mean that I'm trying to mature my thinking too fast? I've got this mindset that.....I'm already 19! To me 19 is old and I should start behaving more like an adult.

Anyway, yesterday I did a 5km time trial during my training. 12 and a half rounds around the stadium. I had a short stich attack and ended up walking a while. Alot of things were going through my mind throughout the 5km. The main motivation going through my head was... "If Albert's grandmother could be so mentally strong to be able to have her leg operated on without anaesthetic, so can I!" ... and that kept me going. My mind was so filled up with alot of motivating thoughts till I lost count of the number of rounds I ran. As I jog passed my coach, I asked her how many more rounds to go. She said, "You've finished." ...... My timing for 5KM is 28 minutes. Previous best record was around 32 minutes. Good job to me. I must admit I could feel that my heart was beating and pumping weirdly. I guess it's all due to smoking....

I can't wait for Sunday. I'm going for a run with Albert and some friends. This time, I'm gonna jog for an hour. It doesn't matter how much distance I cover or how fast I jog. An hour of jogging non-stop! A test of endurance... I will try going for a run as often as I can. Running helps to increase my fitness level and of course, trains me mentally. "Mind over body."

Got lots to write about what happened today but guess not =P ...... To those whom I went out with today, I love you guys! It's such a joy having your company.

@ Max:- People don't call you Max for nothing! You're my idol when it comes to love-related issues so don't let this girl bring you down okie? But I'm pretty sure you'll get over it soon. Enjoy the good stuffs I just sent ya =D

oh-so-bright.