Sitting in my bedroom,
Not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings,
And make it a poem- from me to you.

'Cause when I'm with you,
I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile,
And then I'm happy again.

I don't see you every day,
But that's the way it's gotta be.
Just knowing you are there
Is good enough for me.

I will hug you when you're ill,
I will hug you when you've cried,
I will help you through the hardest times,
Without even a sigh.

You're always on my mind,
No matter what I do,
Wherever I go,
Whatever I see...
It always leads back to you.

I hope you will enjoy
the new beginning of our journey
I know it sounds cheesy,
But I will always and truly love you.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

I'm not angry with him only becos of the cycling incident. I'm unhappy with the things he always say to me as well. I can take insults once in a while but if it becomes a habit, I'm sorry but I can't practice the art of "Ear In Ear Out" especially if it involves my religion. I'm not very deeply inclined to my religion but I still expect others to respect it and not poke fun of it cos IT IS NOT FUNNY. Asked me questions like... "Hey doob, when you fasting you got eat halal pork?" I would rate that question 0/10 for its' comical value. Go ahead and say I'm too sensitive to all this. But I would seriously beat the daylight out of him when I see him. Yesterday I only had 2 minutes in the arcade, enough time to shout at him and take back my stuffs. You can choose to avoid the arcade now, but fate will definitely allow us to meet. Same goes for DAVID KANG, you wanna continue fooling me? You're doing it to the wrong person bro.

It is definitely NOT a good thing to offend me now. I'm not emotionally stable and my mind is fucking troubled over things. I'm trying my best to stay cheerful still.

I can say I smoke for every fucking day and the number of sticks is increasing. Minimum of 5 sticks a day. WTF? Each time I join my friends for a smoke or my other friends see my smoking, they would get a big shock. I'm in shocked myself. Cos it is so NOT me. I hate smokers, I really hate them! I hate spitting actions as well but there I am always spitting after smoking. I can't understand why I still smoke despite hating this habit. I cant stand the fucking taste man. After 3 sticks today, I felt damn sick. Went to puke in the toilet....but after that I still smoke. WTF? I don't seem to have a control over what I'm doing. And my fucking conscience is pricking me ALL THE TIME. I want back the old Ridhwan...

That is why my mood swings easily. This isn't the main reason though. I'm still in the midst of a painful ardous process of........................

oh-so-bright.

wantlist. (:

YOUR WANTLIST HERE.

exits. (:

[x]Clar Dearie E.X
[x]Atiqah Sister
[x]Farhan ESC
[x]Saidil E.X
[x]Karen E.X
[x]June E.X
[x]Baofa ESC
[x]Eric ESC
[x]Krissy
[x]K.C
[x]AyiE
[x]Valarie
[x]PeiRong
[x]Max
[x]Denise Toh
[x]Bryan
[x]Krissy
[x]XiaXue
[x]Nic Henry
[x]Jia En
[x]Dominic Chia
[x]MeiTing
[x]Lionel Phua
[x]Faithiee
[x]XiaoQuan
[x]Aloy
[x]Karen Ku
[x]Shaik
[x]HuiWen
[x]Weilin EX
[x]Michie
[x]Chiwawa
[x]Bashey

credits.
layout by ts`zerothree [c)

Name: Ridhwan aka YangGuang or Doob
Birthday: 29-09-1987
Occupation: Student(TP Eng) & Waiter(Ritz Carlton)
Email: cyberdoob_87@hotmail.com

[Introduction]

*Likes*
Arcade
Pool/Billard
Clubbing
Making new friends


*Dislikes*
Cheaters
Backboneless
Pessimistism
Guys or Girls who get too "touchy" with me

SHOUTs. (: